How can it only be mid-month?

[Kelly Fisher]

Jeez what a saga the last few weeks have been! So my mom got sick a few weeks ago, but being the stubborn, won't-go-to-the-doctor-unless-she's-dying female that she is, she waited for almost two weeks before she finally got me to drive her to the doctor's office. I had to drive because she was so weak from vomiting and diarrhea that she could barely even walk. So she goes to the doctor and gets all these tests done and I take her home and the next morning (31 July) her doctor calls me and says she can't get ahold of my mother and whatever I'm doing, drop it and take my mom to the ER immediately. Ten minutes later she calls back and asks if I'm at the hospital yet or should she call and ambulance to come get her? So great, the woman has scared the hell out of me and the mom isn't even in the car yet! Twenty minutes of hellishly slow traffic later I finally get her to the hospital and seven hours worth of testing and questions about the color of her vomits and poops later she's admitted to the hospital with acute anaemia and renal failure. On 9 August they release her to go home, even though she's still vomiting, because they say her kidneys have - with a WHOLE lot of fluid IVs and a couple blood transfusions - gotten well enough that the vomiting will stop once the last of those toxins get pissed out. I'm dubious, but whatever. She's been to see one doctor or another every day of this week though, and that isn't likely to stop anytime soon, because she has to go see the doctor every other day until she's given a clean bill of health. And that's just seeing her family doctor, not any of the stomach-and-intestine-ologists she's supposed to be seeing to fix the vomiting that just doesn't stop, or the kidney-ologists she supposed to be seeing about keeping her kidneys healthy now that they're no longer failing, or the random visits to the ER when she has an anxiety attack and can't breathe. Plus she isn't allowed to go back to work until she's well, so she's now been out of work for over two weeks and is OUT of leave to be able to still collect a paycheck and my uncle has covered the mortgage this month and she's making claims on loan insurance so that her credit doesn't go boom!---dead! and I have to drive her everywhere because she just doesn't have it in her to do for herself.

I know they all say God doesn't give you a heavier load than you can carry, and that you should feel blessed to be under so much stress, but damn it, that doesn't make me feel any better about having to take care of a mother who may well be dying right now while also looking for a job because I still haven't found one and provide emotional support for friends who have failing relationships and weird bladder diseases and keep my uncle distracted so he doesn't drive his ailing sister crazy worrying about her and her health and her bills and her kids and...

Seriously, can I like get a hug or something?

[Cindy]

Absolutely you can get a hug!!! *HUUUUGGGSSSS*!!!! Things are pretty much the same on my end...just not quite as bad YET. Too much to get into. In any event, I feel ya, and I know everything will eventually work out...regardless of how bad it gets at first. Maybe you have already been through the worst, and it can only get better from here on out!